"it's scary when you start to really know yourself.. and learn who you are... in spite of what people think you are. that's been the last 2 years of my life. holding on to what i believe and love. learning my heart and not apologizing for it. it's a hard thing to do. you lose people and in some cases, stability. until you wonder if it was even worth it to hold fast to what matters to YOU. is it worth it? i am still learning. finding out if it's okay with me that i give up preconceived notions of what it means to have it all. cause sometimes having your heart in tact feels like the loneliest thing in the world.

you can receive blessings. you can have your dreams. but they all come at a cost. you have to give up something. as for me? in my personal life, i gave up comfort, acceptance, stability. in order to break away from a facade that i felt i lived beneath for a long time. i gave up what a lot of people knew as "Hayley" in order to be who i believe is the real me. and in order to live life more fully. 18...19...20, it's a pretty normal age to do a thing like that, right? everything comes at a cost. not one thing in life, with any value, is free.

so what do you value? what cost the most? and was it worth what you paid?!"

by Hayley Williams ♥